12.15.10

Filled with happiness, so happy, so unexplainable at the same time. Sweet, funny, and smart, he is. Wishing the snow didn't come, just to see him. But the snow mocked me, it came even though I wished so hard that it wouldn't. I think it hates me. I think it gets laughter from tormenting me. I want to go to school, but only for one reason... him. I wanted the snow to come during the weekend at least. My wish was to see him today.

Some people might not see him the way I do, but I think he's gorgeous. I was happier than I've ever been to meet him. He noticed me and that's all it took to make me happy. I was out all last week {except Monday} because I was seriously depressed, so depressed and hardly anyone knows what shit I was going through. But due to him noticing me and joking, it made me happy and it made me laugh. Truly.

He called me cute. I don't believe it, but it made me feel... unexplainable. Yes, unexplainable is how I felt. He called me sweet and funny. He told me he hopes it wouldn't snow today because he wants to see me. He held the same wish as me. And I think he is as disappointed as I am also.

He took my heart before I could say no.

I can't wait to see him. Whichever day it is. I can't wait to speak to him. Whichever day it is.

He walked up to me when I asked another boy if my mascara was messed up. I was nervous because a boy has never gotten that close to me before. He checked my face, to see if my mascara was running down since the other didn't know one clue what mascara was. Something came up, God knows what, and that all started the "Don't hurt me." inside joke. Which he kept saying all day, every time he saw me. At lunch, I caught him with his eyes on me. When my class was leaving, I felt as if he was running up to me. I think he did. He walked beside me, I asked him for his name, which he answered, "Tyler." I've always loved that name. His nickname is TJ. People call him TJ. In math, I finally joked, "Don't make me hurt you." and he laughed, "Please don't!" This time, I caught him glancing at me a million times. He looked back and smiled. Two of those times, he waved at me. In that class, he answered all the questions he raised his hand to answer correct. He's very smart! I was leaving the school building for the school bus on the end of the school hours. He ran up to me again to catch up with me. He said "Hey!" and walked beside me. He told me his bus is #37, which some buses from the bus I get on, which is #69. I asked if he had a Facebook, then he said, "Yes, I'll add you." I asked him for his last name. He told me he liked me and he asked me out on Facebook. Probably because he is shy. I've really fallen for him.